I wish I had anything of interest to say tonight.
Mostly I'm just waiting around for $700 to fall into my lap so that I can get blood work done for cancer markers and whatnot. Is there a money tree somewhere that I don't know about? Because I really, really need to get this done.
Still waiting for the purchase of our new route to be final. It should have been done already, but nobody in this company can seem to get their shit together. I'm supposed to have surgery in September, and I can't do that if we're just getting started on the new route. Why is it so hard to just push some damn paperwork through?
Lately something has been happening to me that hasn't happened in years. And before you get all excited, no. It isn't my period. Ha! Bad joke. Anyways, I've been homesick for my old neighborhood. To the point of dreaming about it constantly. It's weird because I've lived in Jasper for over 3 years now, and I like it here. Maybe my mind is just stressing and it needs something familiar to soothe it? I'm not sure. I did drive around there today when I was in town though. I really miss living right on the bay, to be honest. I love the water. I love the sunsets. The way the breeze smells. Nostalgia, I guess.
My birthday is coming up. Just four days away. I'll be 23. I feel 40 sometimes. I'm hoping to have a few people over this coming Saturday for a little get together. I'm not sure how many will actually show up, but it will be nice to see even just a couple of friends.
So yep. That's my update. Sorry it isn't more interesting. Just felt like chatting with you guys. Until next time!
Sunday, July 22, 2012
Friday, July 6, 2012
On Twitter
If you are familiar with the infertility community around twitter, you know that there has been a bit of drama lately. It happens now and then, just like with anywhere else. But it's always inevitably followed by many people going on and on about what twitter is and isn't for.
"Twitter is for love and support!"
"Twitter isn't a place for drama."
Blah, blah, blah.
I realize that a lot of people use twitter as an escape from the Real World, and that's fine. The only problem with this is that the people who inhabit twitter also inhabit the Real World. And guess what? They have faults and shortcomings just like the rest of us.
They get jealous. They're negative. They're petty. They're judgmental. They're argumentative. Not dominant traits, but at times those things are going to shine through. It's human nature. We all go through it. It's something we have to learn to live with.
Twitter is an amazing support network and there are a lot of great people there. But it can't always be sunshine and rainbows, people. If we're going to decide what twitter is and isn't for, maybe we should allow it to be a place where we can all be open, honest, and ramble on about whatever the fuck we want, be it petty, positive, negative, or what have you.
I, for one, refuse to censor myself for any reason. Don't like it? Don't follow. Simple as that. But nobody should be berated for speaking their mind. And if you're looking for constant positivity? Well. Good luck with that.
"Twitter is for love and support!"
"Twitter isn't a place for drama."
Blah, blah, blah.
I realize that a lot of people use twitter as an escape from the Real World, and that's fine. The only problem with this is that the people who inhabit twitter also inhabit the Real World. And guess what? They have faults and shortcomings just like the rest of us.
They get jealous. They're negative. They're petty. They're judgmental. They're argumentative. Not dominant traits, but at times those things are going to shine through. It's human nature. We all go through it. It's something we have to learn to live with.
Twitter is an amazing support network and there are a lot of great people there. But it can't always be sunshine and rainbows, people. If we're going to decide what twitter is and isn't for, maybe we should allow it to be a place where we can all be open, honest, and ramble on about whatever the fuck we want, be it petty, positive, negative, or what have you.
I, for one, refuse to censor myself for any reason. Don't like it? Don't follow. Simple as that. But nobody should be berated for speaking their mind. And if you're looking for constant positivity? Well. Good luck with that.
Tuesday, July 3, 2012
And So, We Continue To Wait
Follow up was today. It wasn't NEARLY as scary as I expected, and I had company so I wasn't alone. Thankfully I spent the week googling and was very prepared.
Basically, my doctor thinks I have one or more functioning cysts. This means that they are producing hormones autonomously. My brain is not controlling them as it should be. The cyst(s) is/are producing so much estrogen and progesterone that it's telling my brain not to create any FSH (follicle stimulating hormones, which makes eggs mature) or LH (luteinizing hormone, which tells the ovary to release the egg). That's just one theory. There really isn't a way to be absolutely sure.
Another theory is Kallmann Syndrome, which is a form of hypogonadotropic hypogonadism. It's a genetic disorder that messes with the pituitary gland and/or hypothalamus. This is less likely, because one of the main symptoms in over 50% of cases is loss of sense of smell. And I can smell things like crazy. So I'm not really going to worry about that one.
Back to the cysts. We're going to continue with surgery, set for sometime in September. In the meantime, I'll have blood work to rule out any malignancy (hint: cancer/bad things) just to be sure there isn't anything else we need to take care of.
He says that the best thing to do for the cysts is to completely remove them laparoscopically, which is where they make a tiny incision in your bellybutton and use cameras instead of cutting you wide open. Instead of just draining the fluid out of the cysts, called aspiration, he will cut open the ovary and remove the cysts, cyst walls and all. The reason for this being that if he leaves the walls of the cysts, like is done with just aspiration, there's a good chance that they will fill right back up with fluid, and then we'll be right back where we started.
This is a basic side view of my left ovary. The biggest cyst is on the top, with some smaller, but still considered big, cysts underneath it. It's like small balloons inside a bigger balloon. My doctor wants to make an incision in the top of my ovary, remove the top/biggest cyst, and then try to remove the smaller ones that are under it.
Because of the position of the bottom cysts, the surgery may get a little more complicated. His main goal is to remove the cysts and save as much of the ovary as he can. However, if it starts bleeding too much it will put me in danger, and the entire ovary will need to be removed. He says this isn't very likely, but to be safe my surgery has been moved from the surgery center to Willowbrook Methodist hospital in Houston.
We still don't know anything about the conditions inside of my uterus. We won't be able to find out until the surgery in September. So it's still a bit of a wait until we will know 100% whether or not we will need a surrogate. Once I am recovered, we can do more blood work to see if the hormone issues resolve themselves once the cysts are gone. If not, I am not sure what we'll do from there. We didn't discuss it. One step at a time!
That's all for now. I'll keep you all updated!
Basically, my doctor thinks I have one or more functioning cysts. This means that they are producing hormones autonomously. My brain is not controlling them as it should be. The cyst(s) is/are producing so much estrogen and progesterone that it's telling my brain not to create any FSH (follicle stimulating hormones, which makes eggs mature) or LH (luteinizing hormone, which tells the ovary to release the egg). That's just one theory. There really isn't a way to be absolutely sure.
Another theory is Kallmann Syndrome, which is a form of hypogonadotropic hypogonadism. It's a genetic disorder that messes with the pituitary gland and/or hypothalamus. This is less likely, because one of the main symptoms in over 50% of cases is loss of sense of smell. And I can smell things like crazy. So I'm not really going to worry about that one.
Back to the cysts. We're going to continue with surgery, set for sometime in September. In the meantime, I'll have blood work to rule out any malignancy (hint: cancer/bad things) just to be sure there isn't anything else we need to take care of.
He says that the best thing to do for the cysts is to completely remove them laparoscopically, which is where they make a tiny incision in your bellybutton and use cameras instead of cutting you wide open. Instead of just draining the fluid out of the cysts, called aspiration, he will cut open the ovary and remove the cysts, cyst walls and all. The reason for this being that if he leaves the walls of the cysts, like is done with just aspiration, there's a good chance that they will fill right back up with fluid, and then we'll be right back where we started.
This is a basic side view of my left ovary. The biggest cyst is on the top, with some smaller, but still considered big, cysts underneath it. It's like small balloons inside a bigger balloon. My doctor wants to make an incision in the top of my ovary, remove the top/biggest cyst, and then try to remove the smaller ones that are under it.
Because of the position of the bottom cysts, the surgery may get a little more complicated. His main goal is to remove the cysts and save as much of the ovary as he can. However, if it starts bleeding too much it will put me in danger, and the entire ovary will need to be removed. He says this isn't very likely, but to be safe my surgery has been moved from the surgery center to Willowbrook Methodist hospital in Houston.
We still don't know anything about the conditions inside of my uterus. We won't be able to find out until the surgery in September. So it's still a bit of a wait until we will know 100% whether or not we will need a surrogate. Once I am recovered, we can do more blood work to see if the hormone issues resolve themselves once the cysts are gone. If not, I am not sure what we'll do from there. We didn't discuss it. One step at a time!
That's all for now. I'll keep you all updated!
Friday, June 22, 2012
What Does It Mean?
The results are in. And I have no idea what they mean. This is from CD5, no stims.
Anyways, here is what the scan showed. Lefty has four pretty big cysts. Righty looks like a bunch of grapes. That's how they always look.
I hope that turned out to be an ok size for you guys to read. So yeah. Pretty worried. Spent most of the day googling. Bad idea. I'm prepared for terrible news though. Please send some good thoughts my way. My follow up is scheduled for July 3 at 2pm. We'll know more at that time.
In other news, I met up with our potential surrogate! We were already somewhat acquainted with each other, but it was good to get together and talk about some things. In fact, I just remembered that I was going to email her some links on how the whole surrogacy process works. She isn't an experienced surrogate. Just a girl I know who feels like she can give us the ultimate gift. (I try to avoid using smilies or LOLspeak in my blog, but you can imagine a big smiley face right there.) I don't know if I really want to go into too much detail right now, but I'm very hopeful that she is the one for us. It's still a ways off, but I like having things like this planned out. I like being prepared.
Well, I guess that's all for the night. Let's hope that I can stay sane for the next week and a half until my follow up appointment.
- Estradiol (E2): 392 pg/ml
- FSH: <0.100 mIU/ml
- LH: <0.100 mIU/ml
- Progesterone: 13.0 ng/ml
Anyways, here is what the scan showed. Lefty has four pretty big cysts. Righty looks like a bunch of grapes. That's how they always look.
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| Those are the sizes of the cysts on the left ovary, in millimeters. It shows length and width, and the average of those two numbers. I think. Right ovary had so many small ones that he didn't measure or even count all of them. |
I hope that turned out to be an ok size for you guys to read. So yeah. Pretty worried. Spent most of the day googling. Bad idea. I'm prepared for terrible news though. Please send some good thoughts my way. My follow up is scheduled for July 3 at 2pm. We'll know more at that time.
In other news, I met up with our potential surrogate! We were already somewhat acquainted with each other, but it was good to get together and talk about some things. In fact, I just remembered that I was going to email her some links on how the whole surrogacy process works. She isn't an experienced surrogate. Just a girl I know who feels like she can give us the ultimate gift. (I try to avoid using smilies or LOLspeak in my blog, but you can imagine a big smiley face right there.) I don't know if I really want to go into too much detail right now, but I'm very hopeful that she is the one for us. It's still a ways off, but I like having things like this planned out. I like being prepared.
Well, I guess that's all for the night. Let's hope that I can stay sane for the next week and a half until my follow up appointment.
Tuesday, June 19, 2012
Some Things
So, good news. I lost thirteen pounds! 13! Yay me! I still have four to go until I reach my goal. I almost don't even care about those last four though. Cuz thirteen is freaking awesome. I had to lose that weight though. I was at 152, size 11/13. That's the biggest/heaviest I've ever been. I did not feel great about the way I looked. Right now I'm at 139 and I feel so good about myself. That's all that matters, right? And 139 is still a very healthy weight for me. Win win.
I've started going to play pokeno once a month with the ladies I work with. I've only been the last couple of months, but I really like it. Most of the other ladies don't know me very well, so sometimes I feel awkward. I hope that passes soon.
Lately everyone has been all about babies. It's starting to wear on me. Like tonight, babies/pregnancy came up a few times at pokeno and every single time it really just felt like my heart dropped. Total bummer. I haven't felt that way in a long time. I forgot how much it can hurt from out of nowhere at times. I just want one, ya know? And on top of that, I dreamed that my sister was pregnant again. Not trying to be rude here, but please God, no. I don't know if I can handle that. Of course I'll have to if it happens, but you know what I mean. And get this, in the dream I got upset and she told me to "just let it go." I know she wouldn't say that in real life unless she was feeling really hormonal and mean, but damn. Even dreams can hurt.
Who knows, maybe I'm just feeling this way because I have two doctors appointments on Thursday. One in the morning for my annual exam at my OB's office, and one in the afternoon for baseline blood work and ultrasound at my RE's office. We're not starting IUI or IVF yet, just trying to figure out what my body can and can't do on its own before I have surgery in the fall. And if all goes according to plan, I'll be able to meet up with our potential surrogate that day. We've had to reschedule so many times. It's tough to find time with me having two jobs and her having two kids!
My cat Midna had kittens on the first of the month! Two. A boy and a girl. The girl for sure needs a good home in a few weeks. She's mostly gray with some whitish stripes on her head. That's just her baby fuzz though. It could change more as she grows.
The only other news I have to report is that we should have a new bread route around this time next month. Not 100% sure, and it could change by a few days or even a couple of weeks between now and then. So that's been a bit stressful for us too.
I guess that's it. I'll update you guys some more hopefully once I get my bw and u/s results and meet with the potential surro. Until next time!
I've started going to play pokeno once a month with the ladies I work with. I've only been the last couple of months, but I really like it. Most of the other ladies don't know me very well, so sometimes I feel awkward. I hope that passes soon.
Lately everyone has been all about babies. It's starting to wear on me. Like tonight, babies/pregnancy came up a few times at pokeno and every single time it really just felt like my heart dropped. Total bummer. I haven't felt that way in a long time. I forgot how much it can hurt from out of nowhere at times. I just want one, ya know? And on top of that, I dreamed that my sister was pregnant again. Not trying to be rude here, but please God, no. I don't know if I can handle that. Of course I'll have to if it happens, but you know what I mean. And get this, in the dream I got upset and she told me to "just let it go." I know she wouldn't say that in real life unless she was feeling really hormonal and mean, but damn. Even dreams can hurt.
Who knows, maybe I'm just feeling this way because I have two doctors appointments on Thursday. One in the morning for my annual exam at my OB's office, and one in the afternoon for baseline blood work and ultrasound at my RE's office. We're not starting IUI or IVF yet, just trying to figure out what my body can and can't do on its own before I have surgery in the fall. And if all goes according to plan, I'll be able to meet up with our potential surrogate that day. We've had to reschedule so many times. It's tough to find time with me having two jobs and her having two kids!
My cat Midna had kittens on the first of the month! Two. A boy and a girl. The girl for sure needs a good home in a few weeks. She's mostly gray with some whitish stripes on her head. That's just her baby fuzz though. It could change more as she grows.
The only other news I have to report is that we should have a new bread route around this time next month. Not 100% sure, and it could change by a few days or even a couple of weeks between now and then. So that's been a bit stressful for us too.
I guess that's it. I'll update you guys some more hopefully once I get my bw and u/s results and meet with the potential surro. Until next time!
Wednesday, May 23, 2012
Informational!
So I went to the seminar last night. Keith was supposed to go with me, but changed his mind, so I invited my friend Taylor along. She learned a lot. Most of that stuff I kind of already knew. I think everyone did. We were probably all there for the raffle prize: an IVF cycle free of physician fees. Long story short, a lady whose insurance covers SIX CYCLES won it. How lame is that? And greedy! I wouldn't even have entered if I already had coverage. But what's done is done.
Dinner with our PS (potential surrogate) got moved to next week. I was a bit bummed, but still had a good night anyways. I'm really anxious to talk about some things with her. Anxious in a good way though. I know that it's still not 100% sure that my uterus is completely useless, but I have a feeling it is, so I want to be good friends with our PS. And speaking of surrogates, is there a better way to say that "we're going to USE a surrogate?" It feels so wrong to say. Like we're only using her for her uterus. I mean, I know we are using her ute, but I also hope that we could be friends. So what's better than saying we're going to USE a surrogate?
Anyways, I spoke with my doctor about my huge cysts and asked if I could have them drained. He said he'd do me one better and remove them completely, membrane and all. He really freaked me out a little because I reminded him that this GIGANTOR cyst (and his slightly smaller buddies) have been hanging around on lefty for a good long time. He told me that should the ovary twist, if it hasn't already, it will cut off blood supply and become necrotic. In other words it will die in there and WHAT IF I HAVE A ZOMBIE OVARY?!?!?! So instead of just having a hysteroscopy, I'll be having a laparoscopy at the same time. Kill two birds with one stone. Or scalpel. Or whatever. The point is that I won't have to pay facility fees twice, won't have to pay for anesthesia twice, and so on and so forth. Still expensive as all hell though.
In the mean time, Keith will have his semen analysis done, and I'll have some blood work drawn. Since I don't currently have a cycle, I'll be put on birth control for one or to months, then during the withdrawal week on day three, I'll have regular baseline bloods drawn. I have to be honest, I'm terrified of these results. All of them. I have no idea how I'll comfort Keith (or myself, for that matter) if the SA is bad. And what if my eggs are bad? I guess that one wouldn't be the end of the world, but still. I'm worried. And with the luck I've had so far, I think I have every right to be worried over here.
Other than that, I think it may be finally safe to say that we're getting a new bread route. The one that runs through our actual town instead of the town that's thirty minutes away from here. This is good news for us. It means we will make more money. It means we can get more done with all of this fertility business. It's going to be several weeks before anything is actually final, but once it is, I can have my surgery.
That's it for tonight, folks.
Dinner with our PS (potential surrogate) got moved to next week. I was a bit bummed, but still had a good night anyways. I'm really anxious to talk about some things with her. Anxious in a good way though. I know that it's still not 100% sure that my uterus is completely useless, but I have a feeling it is, so I want to be good friends with our PS. And speaking of surrogates, is there a better way to say that "we're going to USE a surrogate?" It feels so wrong to say. Like we're only using her for her uterus. I mean, I know we are using her ute, but I also hope that we could be friends. So what's better than saying we're going to USE a surrogate?
Anyways, I spoke with my doctor about my huge cysts and asked if I could have them drained. He said he'd do me one better and remove them completely, membrane and all. He really freaked me out a little because I reminded him that this GIGANTOR cyst (and his slightly smaller buddies) have been hanging around on lefty for a good long time. He told me that should the ovary twist, if it hasn't already, it will cut off blood supply and become necrotic. In other words it will die in there and WHAT IF I HAVE A ZOMBIE OVARY?!?!?! So instead of just having a hysteroscopy, I'll be having a laparoscopy at the same time. Kill two birds with one stone. Or scalpel. Or whatever. The point is that I won't have to pay facility fees twice, won't have to pay for anesthesia twice, and so on and so forth. Still expensive as all hell though.
In the mean time, Keith will have his semen analysis done, and I'll have some blood work drawn. Since I don't currently have a cycle, I'll be put on birth control for one or to months, then during the withdrawal week on day three, I'll have regular baseline bloods drawn. I have to be honest, I'm terrified of these results. All of them. I have no idea how I'll comfort Keith (or myself, for that matter) if the SA is bad. And what if my eggs are bad? I guess that one wouldn't be the end of the world, but still. I'm worried. And with the luck I've had so far, I think I have every right to be worried over here.
Other than that, I think it may be finally safe to say that we're getting a new bread route. The one that runs through our actual town instead of the town that's thirty minutes away from here. This is good news for us. It means we will make more money. It means we can get more done with all of this fertility business. It's going to be several weeks before anything is actually final, but once it is, I can have my surgery.
That's it for tonight, folks.
Saturday, May 19, 2012
A Birthday and A Meeting
Keith turned THIRTY on Thursday! I'm guessing it doesn't feel much different than 29, but who knows. We celebrated (um, too much) last Saturday. And we're going out for karaoke tonight too. It was Keith's idea, but I have a feeling it's probably more for me.
This upcoming Tuesday I'm going to a patient seminar at Houston Fertility Institute in Beaumont. They're raffling off an IVF cycle free of doctor fees. That's about half off. Keith was supposed to go with me, but instead my friend Taylor is going with me. That's cool. We can goof off that way!
Afterwards we (or maybe just I) will be going to Cafe Del Rio to meet a potential surrogate! Nothing really concrete yet, more of just a casual meeting to talk about what a surrogacy entails. I am already acquainted with her, but I'm hoping that we can get to know each other more and become good friends also.
Taking this step feels SO surreal. I know it's still a while off because things are expensive, but just getting together with her is a step in the right direction.
Wish me luck!
This upcoming Tuesday I'm going to a patient seminar at Houston Fertility Institute in Beaumont. They're raffling off an IVF cycle free of doctor fees. That's about half off. Keith was supposed to go with me, but instead my friend Taylor is going with me. That's cool. We can goof off that way!
Afterwards we (or maybe just I) will be going to Cafe Del Rio to meet a potential surrogate! Nothing really concrete yet, more of just a casual meeting to talk about what a surrogacy entails. I am already acquainted with her, but I'm hoping that we can get to know each other more and become good friends also.
Taking this step feels SO surreal. I know it's still a while off because things are expensive, but just getting together with her is a step in the right direction.
Wish me luck!
Tuesday, May 15, 2012
Short and Sweet Quickie!
Just a quick update. Going to a patient seminar at HFI's Beaumont office. (That's our clinic, btw.) They're giving out information on all of the options related to ART, a free dinner, and raffling off an IVF cycle free of doctor fees. That's half off! Can't pass up a chance at that.
Even though we lost my sister as a surrogate candidate, we've gained two more possible candidates. That brings our total to two, fyi. No real news yet though. I still need to talk to Keith about it all. I'm not going to post about them yet because doing that might get my hopes up too much.
And speaking of Keith, it's his 30th birthday on Thursday! I think he has some pretty mixed emotions about it though. I think maybe he thought he'd have a child by now. I thought so, too.
That's all for now.
Even though we lost my sister as a surrogate candidate, we've gained two more possible candidates. That brings our total to two, fyi. No real news yet though. I still need to talk to Keith about it all. I'm not going to post about them yet because doing that might get my hopes up too much.
And speaking of Keith, it's his 30th birthday on Thursday! I think he has some pretty mixed emotions about it though. I think maybe he thought he'd have a child by now. I thought so, too.
That's all for now.
Monday, May 7, 2012
Back at Square One.
Yep. Here we are. I talked to my sister a little more.
She isn't going to be our surrogate after all. Probably not our egg donor either. I may not need DE anyways though.
The point is that we're right back where we were when we first found out we'd likely need a surrogate. (Side note: was that really only a couple of weeks ago? It feels like a lifetime already.) After she thought about it some more, she remembered how tough her pregnancy with Bella Grace was. Early labor, bed rest, frequent bladder and UTI infections. She said maybe in a few years.
I can't say I blame her after all of that, butI'm We're still really disappointed. We've already waited a few years. We're ready. I'd never seen Keith so ready. I'm not sure if he'll bottle all of that up again or not, but I'm reassured just knowing that he might actually want this as much as I do. I mean, I know he does. He just doesn't show it like I do.
So. What next? First, we need more money. Second, I need a hysteroscopy and something done about these huge ovarian cysts. Aspiration, maybe? Then it's all about finding our surrogate and going with the process from there.
Did I mention money? Lots of money? Because yeah, that. Does anyone have several tens of thousands of dollars laying around? Or maybe you know someone who wants to be my baby mama for next to nothing?
Yeah. Me neither.
She isn't going to be our surrogate after all. Probably not our egg donor either. I may not need DE anyways though.
The point is that we're right back where we were when we first found out we'd likely need a surrogate. (Side note: was that really only a couple of weeks ago? It feels like a lifetime already.) After she thought about it some more, she remembered how tough her pregnancy with Bella Grace was. Early labor, bed rest, frequent bladder and UTI infections. She said maybe in a few years.
I can't say I blame her after all of that, but
So. What next? First, we need more money. Second, I need a hysteroscopy and something done about these huge ovarian cysts. Aspiration, maybe? Then it's all about finding our surrogate and going with the process from there.
Did I mention money? Lots of money? Because yeah, that. Does anyone have several tens of thousands of dollars laying around? Or maybe you know someone who wants to be my baby mama for next to nothing?
Yeah. Me neither.
Friday, May 4, 2012
Tentative Decisions
So we've talked and talked. We've chosen surrogacy.
My sister volunteered to be our egg donor/surrogate. Technically that's called traditional surrogacy. We're ready. More than ready. Keith wants to do this right away. I'm not surprised though. He'll be thirty this month. A big milestone. I'll be 23. I thought I'd have at least one kid by now. I remember always wanting to have 2 by the time I was 25. Ha.
Anyways, we're mostly just waiting for my sister to get things straightened out on her end and let us know for sure if this is a go. If she's changed her mind already, we'll try to start working towards a gestational surrogacy with someone else.
Here's hoping that we can get the ball rolling and that things go semi smoothly.
My sister volunteered to be our egg donor/surrogate. Technically that's called traditional surrogacy. We're ready. More than ready. Keith wants to do this right away. I'm not surprised though. He'll be thirty this month. A big milestone. I'll be 23. I thought I'd have at least one kid by now. I remember always wanting to have 2 by the time I was 25. Ha.
Anyways, we're mostly just waiting for my sister to get things straightened out on her end and let us know for sure if this is a go. If she's changed her mind already, we'll try to start working towards a gestational surrogacy with someone else.
Here's hoping that we can get the ball rolling and that things go semi smoothly.
Friday, April 27, 2012
Not The Best News
I guess I should give an update. It's been so long!
We had our first RE appointment two days ago. Just a consultation, but it didn't go as I'd hoped. Remember the D&C I had in 2010? I haven't had a period since then. My doctor is worried that there's extensive scarring in my uterus. I've been worried about the same thing, to be honest. But he mentioned that it may even be so bad that the front and back walls are fused together.
What does this mean? In a nutshell: it means we're probably screwed. It's not a for sure diagnosis. I'll have to have another hysteroscopy to check it out. It may be fixable through surgery with microscissors, but after reading about pregnancy complications after scarring and surgery, I'm not really sure I want to go that route.
I don't feel very hopeful for the results of the scope, to be honest. I'd say we're probably looking at surrogacy or adoption to become parents. It's all really a lot to think about. I guess that's all for now though.
We had our first RE appointment two days ago. Just a consultation, but it didn't go as I'd hoped. Remember the D&C I had in 2010? I haven't had a period since then. My doctor is worried that there's extensive scarring in my uterus. I've been worried about the same thing, to be honest. But he mentioned that it may even be so bad that the front and back walls are fused together.
What does this mean? In a nutshell: it means we're probably screwed. It's not a for sure diagnosis. I'll have to have another hysteroscopy to check it out. It may be fixable through surgery with microscissors, but after reading about pregnancy complications after scarring and surgery, I'm not really sure I want to go that route.
I don't feel very hopeful for the results of the scope, to be honest. I'd say we're probably looking at surrogacy or adoption to become parents. It's all really a lot to think about. I guess that's all for now though.
Friday, January 20, 2012
Better!
Good news! Our marriage has survived and we're both feeling very optimistic about the future. We're trying to sell our bread route and buy a new, better one. We're thinking about jumping back into trying for a baby. We have three cats, y'all! They're our babies for now and we both adore them.
Anyways, it's been fourteen months since I cycled. Nothing has seemed to help. I have high prolactin and problematic cysts. Apparently nobody thinks it's enough to prescribe me any kind of medication. I've asked for parlodel for my prolactin, but got a no. I've asked for metformin to help regulate some things, and got a no. So now what? I'm stuck doing a fourth provera challenge, and honestly I'm not feeling too optimistic about it.
I'm still absolutely in love with our house. I can't help but look around and be incredibly thankful that we're more fortunate than my parents were.
My sister had her third baby. A girl, Isabella. We are over our differences and are close again. I can't even tell you how happy I am about it.
Hopefully I can get back into blogging again, because it's a good way to express myself and relieve stress. Well, that's all for now. I'll try to get back to y'all soon!
Anyways, it's been fourteen months since I cycled. Nothing has seemed to help. I have high prolactin and problematic cysts. Apparently nobody thinks it's enough to prescribe me any kind of medication. I've asked for parlodel for my prolactin, but got a no. I've asked for metformin to help regulate some things, and got a no. So now what? I'm stuck doing a fourth provera challenge, and honestly I'm not feeling too optimistic about it.
I'm still absolutely in love with our house. I can't help but look around and be incredibly thankful that we're more fortunate than my parents were.
My sister had her third baby. A girl, Isabella. We are over our differences and are close again. I can't even tell you how happy I am about it.
Hopefully I can get back into blogging again, because it's a good way to express myself and relieve stress. Well, that's all for now. I'll try to get back to y'all soon!
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